My mind races to a million or more negative places, it seems I am the queen of my own torture, as I cannot stop the thoughts... "Maybe everyone would prosper if I did not exist" Then the worry comes... Of who will love my children, my dogs, my little unnecessary stuff that surrounds me... Who …
Tag: sadness

Despair…
From the time I wake up and until I lay down again and again and again I feel lost I feel sad I feel unmovitavated I feel alone I feel betrayed I feel hopeless I feel worry I am in despair. I wake up again to more triggers and more backstabbing A repeated cycle of …

Beautiful?
Sometimes I get out of bed feeling good, and I put myself together feeling beautiful, accomplished, and happy. I try to start a new day better than the last, and that's how I have been healing myself. Then we have the days that I cannot bear my own reflection, and the day follows the same …

Circle In My Mind
Pitter patter in my heart of gold As it's stepped on and stomped apart You're too broke down to carry me My head is so full of what's been said I cannot fathom each day without you Your words like a circle in my mind They just keep going round and round Will I ever …