Here is the scenario for today’s Ramble:
Here are the questions:
- What is the fear behind you?
- What is the obvious destiny in front of you?
- Would you choose to go back where you came from if the path would bring more good than bad?
- If going forward had a negative consequence on your path, would you consider going forward if it was the path with the most reward than the other directions?
- After final consideration of all of the paths, which way did you go, and why?
Here are my answers:
- The fear behind me is failure and guilt. Failure to the people that rely on me the most, and guilt for the things that have happened in my past.
- The obvious destiny in front of me is the ability to become the person that I want to be, which is a mother, a lawyer, a sister, a friend, and a daughter. I want to go to law school, and I hope that it is hiding up there in the unknown space at the T in the road.
- Part of me would want to see if I could fix what I broke, and if I could go back to bring good back from a past that has already been so traumatizing, I would absolutely allow myself to backstep.
- We all want the most reward, even if it is a path that we did not intend to choose. My negative consequence could be that I miss the mark on getting to become a lawyer, and the positive reward that came of it could be that I was able to become a paralegal and had my entire family back with me. This would cancel out the bad from the path backward for me.
- I would never go to the left because wants are less than needs. My needs are important, but it isn’t as important as a positive final reward that lies in front of me. While I would like to fix the path behind me, that is messing with the universal truth for me, so I would definitely dive off into the unpaved path forward.