E.M.’s World: Share Your World Answers 10/18/21

Are you easily frightened or startled?

I am absolutely the easiest person to frighten or startle. It has not always been that way. I used to love scary things and watching a good horror/thriller flick on television. Halloween has always been one of my favorite holidays. The problem is that now when I watch scary movies that I have night terrors, and I get startled easy, even around the people I live with. If someone is walking through the house when I am not expecting it, it makes me jump and even scream out sometimes. I am not sure when I got so fearful or when the night terrors started or why, but it probably has a little to do with my PTSD and anxiety. It really got bad when I watched The Grudge. My family pokes a little fun at how much I get scared of dolls, clowns, and zombies. At least everyone can get a bit of amusement on my “scary” factor in my personality lol.

(Purely whimsical supposition.  Suspend disbelief for a bit)
If you were a ghost, what location do you think you would haunt? Is it the same or different from the location you’d want
 to haunt?

If I were a ghost, I would probably be stuck in this backyard at my house, but when it comes to where I would haunt, that location is different. I would want to haunt my ex-husband’s house and give back some of the torment and mental problems he gave me. In the first situation, I would not be a malevolent ghost, but in the second situation I would definitely be a bad ghost lol.

What do you see in your mind’s eye when you close your eyes?  (I know somebody will answer ‘the inside of my eyelids”, so I took the temptation away by answering that first!    Feel free to use that answer if you like though, or pass. It’s ALL good!)

My mind’s eye takes me places all the time. I call that “pictures in my head”, and it is one of the strongest side effects of my mental illness. I will see little movies of me and the people around me, places, people I have no idea who they are, and animals interacting with me. It’s not a bad side effect, but it happens mostly when I am awake. My mind’s eye is pretty calm and quiet usually, but it has caused a few bad visions.

If a Semi (Big Rig in Americanese) (lorry or trolley over the pond) were about to smash into a crowd, and you could divert the vehicle’s course to hit only one person, would you?  How would you decide who would become the victim?

LOL! This question made me giggle because I would always have a semi head right toward my ex-husband due to all of the pain he caused me and my children. He was a terrible person, and he still is. I don’t believe I would even shed a tear.


GRATITUDE SECTION

Please feel free to share what makes you feel warm and cozy when the wind blows cold? Alternatively (for those on the other side of the world), what makes you feel relaxed and comfortable when the thermometer starts rising?

When the wind blows cold, I love a nice hot cup of coffee and a fuzzy blanket to feel warm and cozy while listening to one of my audio books on Audible and smoking a cigarette or two or three lol.


This post was written for Melanie’s Share Your World prompt. Click here to join in the fun!

2 thoughts on “E.M.’s World: Share Your World Answers 10/18/21

  1. Thanks, E.M. for Sharing Your World! Your ex sounds like a real piece of work and I’m glad you were able to leave him behind. The harder part is getting your mind to leave him behind too. He’s not worth ‘head space’ if he’s anywhere near as ugly as you paint him. I hope you get help with your PTSD and the other anxiety issues (night terrors, easily startled and the rest), and if you are, good for you! I’ve been able to get a handle on my own issues that way finally. It’s taken a long time though. I recognize that my PTSD will never be erased, so I have learned and continue to learn coping strategies so it doesn’t swamp me. The night terrors still show up occasionally though and I have medication for that. Finding comforting things that help calm a person is one of the best ways, and it sounds like you have a good handle on some of them – the cup of coffee, the cigarettes, the warm fuzzy throw. Music and books are fabulous towards that goal too. Have a safe and wonderful week! Thanks again for participating! 🙂

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    1. You’re welcome! Sharing keeps me sane, and I am glad that I can write things that people can relate with and resonate to. I have a hard time with my PTSD, and it’s probably why I am not able to be in a relationship. I tend to attract bad people. My ex-husband was probably the worst, and I was with him for nearly 14 years. So many bad things happened, and I am relieved to be rid of him. I am seeing my first psychiatrist. I had only been in talk therapies to learn some coping skills and such. I finally went and found new help last week, so hopefully I can get some relief. I have been manic for a while, and I am worn down. My night terrors come and go, and then the other things I have is like these little movies in my head when I am awake. I mentioned them, but they are almost like little delusions throughout the day lol. Sometimes they inspire, and sometimes they debilitate me a bit. Music is another go-to for me as well of all genres depending on mood and episode. I appreciate all the support and feedback you have given me today. It’s nice to make new friends *smiles*. Have a beautiful day! It’s sunny and cool today in California. I am happy to participate.

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